My Life in Renovations

You won't know unless you ask   You can't live unless you share.   Walk. Dream. Fly. Wine. Coffee. Gay. Flirt. Shoes. Write. Think. Speak. Laugh. Gasp. Judge. Truth. Realist. Stalk. Patience. Tall. Balding. Rational. Apple. Adidas. Addiction. Swim. Sink. Drown. Homebody. Drugs. Travel. Learn. Hope. Functionalist. 26. Canadian. Single. Sexual. Selfish. Graduate. Student.

On more than success

Someone told me once that if you want to succeed you have to give up either your family, friends, work, or health. If you want to be excellent you have to give up two.

I haven’t seen my family in 6 months, my friends in 3, or the gym in 4. I don’t have any time for myself, let alone anyone else. But I’m on three studies, I’ve been asked to be on a fourth, I’m nearly done my thesis, and I’m a co-applicant or collaborating investigator on two national grant proposals. My work is excellent. It’s just all I have now.

— 7 months ago with 2 notes
#success  #work 
On office work

Pull or push, it doesn’t matter. The blade sinks in either way. From one side to the other, the paper is cleaved in two. One whole becomes halves. Each half becomes a new whole.

— 1 year ago
#office work  #cutting paper  #im too educated for this 
Beside the window, singing to the night.

Beside the window, singing to the night.

— 1 year ago
#dark  #somewhere out there 
In Vancouver for the weekend.
Stopped at my favorite shoe store to pick up some new kicks and found the latest iteration of the Adicolor as part of the consortium 30th anniversary releases. Soft leather in a blue pastel, total win for summer.

In Vancouver for the weekend.
Stopped at my favorite shoe store to pick up some new kicks and found the latest iteration of the Adicolor as part of the consortium 30th anniversary releases. Soft leather in a blue pastel, total win for summer.

— 1 year ago
#adidas  #adicolor  #consortium  #omg shoes 
On being adrift

Everything runs away from me. My feet in the sand, the tides to the sea.

— 1 year ago
#i was floating once 
Gin o’clock

Gin o’clock

— 1 year ago
On living at school

When I was a kid I’d imagine what it was like to live at the mall. It was always awesome. Now I’m not a kid and I’m not imagining anything, I’ve literally been living on campus for a little over a week.

I sold my house ten days ago and found myself with 2 weeks of limbo before I moved in elsewhere. I tried the couch surfing thing for a couple nights but it was inconvenient having to plan around other people’s lives. I tried living with my parents for a few days but it was inconvenient having to drive the 1.5 hour commute in from their town. I tried staying at the bath house one night but it was loud and I kept getting fucked. I settled on living on campus.

It’s really a pretty ideal set up. My filing cabinet has become somwhat of a dresser, I have some toiletries and few changes of clothes, I have a sleeping bag, and I have a couple pillows stashed away. I unfurl my bed every evening and tuck it all away back my filing cabinet every morning. My office has a spare 5ft (albeit uncomfortable) desk that has become my pseudo bed at night. The department lounge recently got a Keurig so I have coffee in the morning and the campus has plenty of (terrible) food options to eat. I’ve been showering in the locker rooms at the gym. There’s pretty much everything a person needs to survive here.

I’ve got one more night of this and then I’m back to being housed.

— 1 year ago
#grad school  #homeless 
I’m moving so all of the shoes have to get packed… Number of boxes to pack my kitchen: 5; Number of boxes to pack my shoes: 5.

I’m moving so all of the shoes have to get packed… Number of boxes to pack my kitchen: 5; Number of boxes to pack my shoes: 5.

— 1 year ago
#allAdidas  #Adidas  #every pair 
On revelations

I only tip the pizza guy 10% if he walks on my lawn.

— 1 year ago
#tipping  #revelations  #pizza 
On FroYo →

Tutti Frutti Frozen Yogurt. It’s my new obsession. It also scored me some cool points when I took the boy there for a date. I’m so hip.

— 1 year ago with 1 note
#frozen yogurt  #yyc  #calgary 
On God and the Plumber

I am not me brushing my teeth in the shower. Instead I am the toothpaste, sloshed about and made frothy. Leaving you with that minty fresh feeling that screams “hygiene”. I let you start your day with the confidence of knowing that whatever rot and decomposition that occurred in your mouth over night is gone.

You repay me for this by spitting me into the tub where I coalesce with the water carrying the rest of your filth. Together we circle the drain, around and around. Waiting to sink down that black hole. Only god knows where I’m going. God and the plumber.

— 1 year ago
#toothpaste  #morning rituals  #self loathing  #reflections on god and plumbing 
On (retail) therapy

When I’m feeling down about myself I buy things. It makes me feel better for a little while. Then, when that wears off and I feel down again at least I look fucking awesome.

— 1 year ago
#retail  #therapy  #omg shopping 
On gay superpowers

I don’t know how good Friday was. My plan was to meet my friend/ex for nacho’s and beer, instead we ate some drugs and ended up having a threesome with some random we picked up at the bar (who turned out to have a monstrous cock). Not quite what I had planned.

— 1 year ago
#gay  #threesome  #good friday 
On vindication

The Subway guy making my sandwich at the University recognized me from high school. I told him I didn’t want any olives. When he asked if I needed napkins I said “nah, I’ll just use one of my degrees”.

I didn’t actually, but there’s a cliche about pumping gas in there somewhere.

— 1 year ago with 1 note
#high school  #grad school  #I think I'm better than most people  #(most of the time)  #Subway 
On piling it on

I read an article on the Calgary Herald the other day about entitled workers. In the article were some quotes from a local online marketing group. I liked what they said about managing employee retention so I decided to check out their website and next thing I know I’m looking at their career postings. Instead of the typical “send us your resume” blurb they had a little online form to fill in with the following: “tell us the most interesting thing not on your CV; tell us why you’re qualified for this position; what’s your twitter handle?” and then some contact info. Needless to say, I filled out the form in the sassiest way I could think of, for whatever fucking reason… now I’m meeting with them for coffee this week to discuss the job.

I said I’m an addicted, obsessed, shoe fetishist. I said my mother and father think ill of me. I said I’ve been “beating my head against a wall” at my current job. I don’t even know if I want a (fourth) job. This isn’t how things work in the real world. How is this even happening?

— 1 year ago with 1 note
#jobs  #is this how it's done these days?  #Calgary Herald